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Elton John
My Mother was an amazing woman, she taught me so much. We don't realize until
we're grown just how much influence a parent has on our lives. I wish she was
still here so I could thank her for all she has given me.
My Mother saw beauty everywhere she looked. So many things other people tend to
over look. It may have been a spider web wet with dew, or the spider itself. Although she disliked snakes she could see beauty in them and her dislikes
didn't stop her from teaching me how to capture them, although she didn't like
them in the house. I know she had a little child in her as she looked a things
in awe and with the innocence of a child. How I wish she was here today so we
could go for a long walk and she could tell me more of the things I as a child
was to busy to hear. I thank God for the things I do remember and pray a few
more will come to mind so I can pass them down to my children.
I remember as a child, I couldn't wait until I was 18 so I could pack up, move
away, and be my own boss. Well at the age of 21 I did just that.
In the first 5 years I'd return home every now and then.I remember those short
but meaningful visits and the joy I'd feel when I'd gaze upon her face. Little
did I know then, I would see her very little in the next 22 years to come. I
did call her and talk to her every week, sometimes 2 and 3 times a week. We
were very close and she was a very important part of my life. I depended on her
for a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on, good advice, and undying Love. She
never once let me down and although she didn't always agree with me, she
understood me, she knew me better than I knew myself.
As I look back now I see things so much more clearly, the signs were there but
I didn't see them at that time. My Mother wasn't a complainer and she didn't
want her children to worry about her. I guess she knew what was going on and
decided nothing could be done.
"She saw no reason to burden her children with the facts."
Burden? That would have been her word not ours. She was one of the most
important people in our lives. There's no way she could have ever been a
burden. So she accepted the fact she was dying and lived life like everything
was just fine. Unfortunately since she went on self-diagnoses
she would never seek the help of a Doctor or anyone that may have been able
to help her. She signed her own death certificate Could she have been helped? We will never know. We just know her time with us was much to short and we feel cheated. If I had only questioned things she had said and done, maybe she would be here now.Does that make me an accomplice? I don't know for sure, I can't help but blame myself a little
Mother's Day 1998 I found out she was failing. I hadn't seen her in (I'm
ashamed to say) many years. She lived in Florida and I in Oklahoma, it seemed
the money for the trip was never there. How I wish I had realized how uncertain
life in this world truly is. How a loved one can be gone in the blink of an
eye. Now uncertain of the time she had left, I rushed to see the Mother that I
loved so much. How could this have happened? My Mother was a full figured woman
and what I saw was a shadow of that woman before me. We had a wonderful visit
but you know she never did say I'm dying or even sick. (You could look at her
and know that.) I guess I was looking for a good-bye but that wasn't to be for
Mom would never say good-bye. She had accepted the fact she was dying, yet she
didn't want to die. She loved life and there was no anger in her heart.
Did I say she was perfect? No, she was far from perfect. She was a Special Mom
created by God to give her children the best she could offer. I would say there
was no better Mother ever created. Her Mother died shortly after her birth but
that didn't stop her from knowing how to be a good Mother.
Mom left this world July 16, 1998 as quietly as she had entered this world
(aside from the wailing of 5 grief stricken children). Just 5 days before her
73 birthday
I miss her so much and her death is a very hard part of life to get through. I
think I never will get through it although, things may get easier in time.
Sometimes I feel it's all a bad joke and I will wake up and she will be
there.If only that were true. I look to the stars and wonder where do I go to
speak to her, why do I not hear her voice. How could life be so cruel? I think
of her words when I said," I hate life!" she said,"No, No, No, I Love Life!"
How could she knowing the short time she had left in this world be grateful for
the life she had? I am ashamed of myself I should be thankful for my life and
all I have in it and have had in it, especially theVery Special Mother God Granted Me.
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Goodbye England's Rose
God saw you getting tired
and a cure was not to be,
so He put His arms around you
and whispered "Come with me."
With tearful eyes we watched you,
and saw you pass away,
and though we love you dearly,
we could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
hard working hands were put to rest,
God broke our hearts to prove to us...
He only takes the best.
Author unknown
My Mother Loved this song by Elton John but I was unable to find it for her before she left us. I now have the asf file and it belongs to her on this Memorial Page. I pray she hears the music and knows how much she is Loved.
I Love You
Goodbye England's Rose
Goodbye England's Rose
May you ever grow in our hearts.
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart.
You called out to our country,
And you whispered to those in pain.
Now you belong to heaven,
And the stars spell out your name.
And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind:
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in.
And your footsteps will always fall here,
Along England's greenest hills;
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend ever will.
Loveliness we've lost;
These empty days without your smile.
This torch we'll always carry
For our nation's golden child.
And even though we try,
The truth brings us to tears;
All our words cannot express
The joy you brought us through the years.
Goodbye England's Rose,
From a country lost without your soul,
Who'll miss the wings of your compassion
More than you'll ever know.
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The beautiful Memorial gif was created for me by Lady J, a wonderful person I
came across on the web. Her site is beautiful and I have spent a lot of time
there.
Hope you to will pay her a visit and enjoy the time you spend there. Should you
have a love one you would like to remember with a beautiful gif like this,
please contact her, her work is beautiful and filled with love.
Just click on the gif to go to Lady J's.
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All the songs throughout this website were recorded
from CDs purchaced by me and are for evaluation
and/or educational purposes ONLY.
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Updates were made to this page 07/16/05
Years of missing you.I Love You